It was in the march of the winter
I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter
To my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
Just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine
To walk upon
And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by
It's honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered
As a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken it's place

So please forgive what I have done
No, you can't stay mad at the setting sun
We all get tired, I mean, eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself
A few more days
My salvation, it came
Quite suddenly
When Justin spoke
Very plainly
He said, "Of course it's your decision
But just so you know
If you decide to leave
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
Because it's cold out here
And it will be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss
So I'd like to make some changes
Before you arrive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies

Just love
Just love
I will be pure
No, no, I know I will be pure
Like snow
Like gold
Like snow
Like gold
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So this is the song I am currently listening to the lyrics have so much meaning right now I have listened to it 3 times already. I have a clay mask on my face it is really itchy. that is all i can say.

the boy toy has to sleep so i must go.